• Being Friends Is Not Natural

    FullSizeRenderI drive past Richfield Middle School and spot Antonio and Crystel a block away. The 12-year olds are walking home from school. Backpacks slung over their shoulder. Track bags dangling at their side. Walking shoulder to shoulder. My heart warms. I’ve always wanted them to be friends. To be proud to call each other brother and sister.

    I don’t believe that sibling friendship comes naturally. Friendships among siblings need to be nurtured.

    What comes natural is comparison, competition, and mine, mine, mine.

    Years ago, when I was the stay at home mom, Santa brought Antonio a Disney princess doll set and Crystel Spiderman pajamas. Santa was attempting to even the score that the four-year olds were keeping.

    Why does he have a different laundry basket than me?
    Do I get three licorice?
    Does Crissy get a timeout too?
    Can I help? Crissy got to use the mop last time.
    Why did the tooth fairy bring him ….
    I took a bath first last time.
    I’m growing, Crystel’s not.
    How come I don’t get no cars?

    Antonio and Crystel looked to the other to see how they were doing.

    1132To nurture a friendship between the two I sought out opportunities for them to be nice to each other. This could be in the form of passing a dessert, opening a door, saying a kind word, buying the other a birthday or Christmas present, or letting the other be first.

    To enrich their friendship I noticed when someone’s heart was hurt and insisted the children make amends to each other. This could be a hug or saying something they liked about the other. Later when they were older it meant putting the words into writing, which they taped to their bedroom wall.

    Even now on Crystel’s wall is a letter to her from six-year old Antonio that says:

    1. hes the bes. (She’s the best)
    2. hes fune. (Shes’s fun)
    3. hes cule. (She’s cute)
    4. ses sow moch fun to plau weht (She’s so much fun to play with)

    On the other side of the letter is a picture of Raikou Pokemon that he drew for her.

    DSCN0725It’s also allowing the children to take space from each other, especially when a sign shows up on a bedroom door that says, NO BOYS! This means you Antonio!

    It’s teaching the children that privacy is good and respect for each other is a must.

    It’s reminding them that the other was there for them when they met their birth mom and siblings and now it’s their turn to be supportive.

    It’s celebrating their strengths and having compassion for their weaknesses.

    One will always be faster. “I’ll wait for you, Cissy.”
    One will always be braver. “You first, Cissy.”

    OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAIt’s letting them know that the world is a big place and that the Richfield Cross Country team is big enough for both of them. They both can choose running as their ‘thing’.

    And, in the Spring when it comes time for sixth grade track and one doesn’t want to join because they don’t know anybody on the team and they don’t want to be a loner, they can count on the other one to look out for them and save them a place on the grass.

    I pull the car over to the curb. Antonio and Crystel recognize me. Antonio opens the front passenger door and tosses his bags in. Then he opens the back door and slides in next to Crystel.

    I smile at them. “I’m glad you’re friends.”

    OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAJust like when they were little, they look at each other and laugh.

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    3 responses to “Being Friends Is Not Natural”

    1. Elizabeth di Grazia Avatar
      Elizabeth di Grazia

      Thank you so much for reading the blog and commenting! I love that it touches you as it did me when I wrote it.

    2. Carol Avatar
      Carol

      You have such a way of describing things. I have happy tears in my eyes. You’ve done well, mamma. 🙂

    3. Eliza Waters Avatar

      Beautiful, Elizabeth – so heartwarming!

  • Treasure

    Before we went to Italy I photographed all the jewelry I’d really miss if it were stolen. Some of the pieces have street value, but most of them are keepsakes and their associations are what make them valuable. My childhood charm bracelet with the teeny orange crate. Mom’s matching sweater pins with the blue, rose and yellow rhinestones. A cameo necklace from my grandmother. Rings from my sister and my sons.

    IMG_0447I felt paranoid and silly, but took the photos anyhow. Two friends have had jewelry stolen while they were away from home. Because they didn’t have photos, their insurance companies couldn’t value the items and the police couldn’t identify the jewelry if they found the stolen property.

    If my jewelry were stolen would I be comforted to get it back? Probably not. The simple joy in wearing the earrings, rings, and bracelets is that they’re pretty and I like thinking of the people who gave them to me. If they were returned to me after a theft, that event would distort my feelings about the pieces.

    My impulse to treasure keepsakes is misplaced. Regardless of whether or not I possess the jewelry, I will have the memories of the occasions and the people who gave them to me.

    What I really want is to protect what is irreplaceable. If only the police could show up at my door and return all of the people I lost last year: Mom, Aunt Corinne, Uncle Jim, and Uncle Rocky.

    I am rich in memories but still making payments on how to accept impermanence and loss.

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    2 responses to “Treasure”

    1. margo Avatar
      margo

      Thank you very much for putting my sorrow and loss to words. You nailed it

    2. Eliza Waters Avatar

      Lost in the woods and garden, I missed this post! I loved how you connected the objects to those dear to you, but realized that even if the objects were taken from you, you would hold their memories still. The line I loved best is: ‘If only the police could show up at my door and return all of the people I lost last year’ – so poignant.
      As a heads up, I’ve tagged you for a writing challenge, if you are so willing. http://wp.me/p3O3z4-HN

  • On Being a Parent

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    In the early morning hours I woke to a death squeal. I stood with my ear pressed to the bedroom door. I didn’t want to open the door and have whatever was making that noise escape into our room. I also didn’t want to see what lay on the other side.

    If this was Antonio or Crystel needing me I would have been upstairs in a moment.

    Either this was a cat injured or another animal.

    Jody hadn’t moved from the bed. She sat upright watching me. To her credit she is often upstairs first in the morning and has to deal with any carnage brought in during the night by our three young cats.

    I heard rustling, then quiet. I waited. I turned the knob, peeked out the door.

    “It’s a bunny,” I said, relieved. I brushed away the cats. Took a piece of paper and touched the animal. It didn’t move.

    I opened our garage, retrieved a snow shovel that hadn’t been put away for the summer, and scooped up the cottontail. In the darkness I flipped it over our fence into the athletic field next door and went back to bed.

    That same morning, I was reading the Sunday paper. I could hear the dog barking in the backyard. I took another sip of coffee and thumbed through the Variety section.

    Jody came downstairs from the upper level. She had been on a work conference call. Maybe the barking got to her.

    “The dog has a bunny,” she said looking out the patio door.

    I went outside. This baby bunny was still alive. It was smaller than the one last night. I picked it up and held it in my hands.

    Antonio came up behind me. “Here, I’ll take it.” He held out his cupped palms.

    I handed the bundle carefully to him. He used his swimming towel to make a nest for the bunny in a small cardboard box and took the bunny to his room.

    His being up complicated matters. In crept the concern about how he would regard my actions with this injured animal and how I wanted to raise him as a compassionate person. There would be no flipping this baby rabbit over the fence.

    I Googled how to raise bunnies. It didn’t look good.

    “Antonio, it says that you should put the bunny back where you found it. Maybe it will go back to its den.”

    He took the bunny and lay it under a bush. Ten minutes later the bunny still hadn’t moved. Antonio retrieved the bunny and felt its body for the injury.

    “Should we wake Crystel?” he asked.

    “No.” I was hoping I would have the situation resolved by the time she awoke. I went through a list of possibilities and ended with the idea that taking the bunny two miles to Woodlake Nature Center and leaving it by the bird feeder would be the most humane act and something that Antonio could live with. Maybe a hawk would swoop it up.

    “It’s the circle of life,” I told Antonio on the drive over.

    At Woodlake we sat on the bench watching the birds fly back and forth to the feeders. Antonio cradled the bunny in his arms. I pulled up dead grass and made a nest for the bunny near the feeder. Antonio lay him gently down.

    Once home, Crystel met us at the door.

    “You didn’t wake me,” she accused.

    Back at Woodlake, Crystel picked up the bunny and petted it. “Can we keep it?”

    “No, Crystel. This is the best thing.”

    She carried the bunny away from me singing, “It’s the circle of life little bunny.”

    Cradling the bunny in the crook of her arm, she pulled dead grass with the other to fluff up the nest.

    “His mother won’t find him,” she said.

    “You’re right. Not this time.”

    The bunny lay on her soft white polo sleeve.

    “Hey, that’s my jacket.”

    She laughed. “I know.”

    I gave her a cockeyed glance.

    She knew me well enough to know that I loved being her mother and that I wouldn’t mind the hours I spent on this tiny bunny because it had to do with her and Antonio. Even though it meant that the Sunday paper would end up in the recycling bin unread and I’d be doing an extra load of wash later that day.

    I wouldn’t have had it any other way.

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    One response to “On Being a Parent”

    1. Carol Avatar
      Carol

      That’s a beautiful and story and life lesson. Bless you heart, Beth. 🙂


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